misery stinks!

hey all, whats up? hope everyone is doing fine despite the crazy weather thats giving everyone crazy sickness. soon everyone will become zombies and the end of the world and....okay ignore my randomness :P

latest news so far, i've just been accepted but TARC :D! yeap..they sent me an sms and the acceptance letter came in today. but still there are things to handle..fees,loan,bank account D;

hate hate hate hate xD!

other than that, i think im "( )" this close to getting my DSLR :P aunt has been helping me find the best prices in town haha! 550D!! i just want you! ok la if 550D cannot den 500D lo D;

and here comes the misery. okay imagine this scene :

its a nice sunny day, your friends call you out for a game of football/yuncha/movie/anything. You get yourself ready, check your facebook, grab yur wallet and go. you open your wallet as you walk out of your house, checking the cash you have and you catch a glance of a white "P" with a red background on the top corner on one of your cards. You look up, at you see a car parked outside the gate with the smiliar "P" at the top corner. and you can't do anything, the only thing you can do is hop onto the bicycle thats on your left and take off.

sad isn't it? that exactly what i go through everytime i have something on. so f*cking sick of this.

k.ienlam

a quick update.

hey peeps! sorry i haven't been blogging much haha. sometimes lazy sometimes busy. so i thought yea i'd write a quick update.

so far my acceptance letter to TARC hasn't arrived yet. 2 friends of mine taking A lvls there already received..so i'm a tad bit worried D: (letter plz come tmrw ><). other than that, everything has been the same old.

oh yea, today i helped a friend to learn how to use a DSLR and how to do a lil photography. her dad bought a 550D and let her use for now (so lucky i wanna buy a 550D no money D;) so yea the whole evening we walked arnd DPC lake looking for things to snap..not bad for her first time haha. keep it up!

caught in the rain on the way home cycling from DPC. sheltered at shoplots for around 25 mins. 2012 style weather ==.

ever since my getting my P license, i haven't drove to the streets yet, parents say i'm not ready/no experience and all those kinda stuff la. only drove the avanza 3 times around my housing area. and on my 2nd time i actually slightly scraped the side of the avanza on the side of another car parked on a narrow road. its was old and breaking off, so no changes could be seen LOL! but damn i hate big cars now. hard to estimate..tak suka. gimme a kancil i'm i'll be way more happier lol ;D

hope to work in some event jobs soon. maybe after this weekend cause i'll be heading back to Chenderiang (i think that's how you spell it) in Ipoh, Perak for Qing Ming this coming Sunday.

OH! and i wanna wish those who i know of that's attending the 2nd batch of National Service a big GOOD LUCK! and enjoy yourselves while yur there haha! come back 3 months later stronger,slimer,muscular,darker.......whatever xD! especially to Double E (you know who you are ;D), good luck on the obstacle course xD!

hope i'll get the blogging mood soon. till then, ciao.

k.ienlam

confirmed laa :D

today i finally registered for collegeeeeeeee...xD! and finally decided on my course too haha! so yeap..its confirmed. diploma in mass communication (broadcast communication) at TARC. now to wait for their approval letter lol.

thinkin of college kinda makes me excited LOL! i just know lots of things are gona happen...both interesting and bad. the good thing is i'll be forced to sleep early LOL! and i'll be out communicating again unlike now on MSN and Facebook only ==. lol nvm time will tell.

oh yea i also submitted my application for The Star Edu Fund 2010 (like i'm gona have any chance), but owh well, worth a try la. who knows...sikit-sikit also good enough la. pray hard lalala.

p.s: i seriously,desperately,hopelessly want a DSLR. NOW T_T!


k.ienlam

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something seems to be disturbing me. and i duno wat is it ><

college registration? scholarship? not allowed to drive yet? dunno la.. ==

GAHH!!

of college,KTM and A's.

had a busy day. got up at 8 to head to Kepong KTM station. Jieying came later and we headed to KL Central for breakfast at McDonald's (sausage mcmuffin rocks!). after that was a switch to LRT down to Wangsa Melati station (i think there's a Wangsa in it...). from there, we got a cab to take us to TARC a.k.a Tunku Abdul Rahman College. they had their open day today, so i decided to check things out cause i would be studying there soon.

Oh and thanks again Jieying for accompanying lol.

So we got in, headed to the hall and walked around lol. then we went to a lab where a lecturer was giving info on Mass Communication which i'm interested in. in the end there was only 4 people there including me, Jieying, a girl who wants to change her course with her mom. so yea a Dr.Tang had a face-to-face disscussion with us and he brought us to see the recording studios used by Mass Com students too. video editing studio....audio recording studio....video recording studio..damn. with the latest tech too. sweet :)

then we got back to the hall where i talked to a financial counsultant. and oh we bumped into Marcus and Shermaine too. both came to register lol.

after that, we headed down to KLCC and had lunch at A&W cause we couldn't decide what to eat ==. from there we went to KLCC's edu fair to look for doctorjob books, but sadly takde lol.

from there, we went back to KL Central to switch back to KTM and headed to Putra station where my uncle was waiting for me at the Matta Fair. he brought me to PWTC and to a camera fair. and they were selling the Canon 500D at a damn good offer. and last day! but i'll tell you why later i probably won't be able to get it.

and then it was back to Putra KTM station to head back down to Kepong. little did i realise that the train that came was heading to Sentul and we boarded it (my fault ==). and from there we had to take the train back to Putra KTM and wait for the Rawang train that passes by Kepong. wasted like 1 hour for that crap. geez.

got back and went for football at school. dinner/yumcha at Ali Bawah (Gou Lou). got back home, and dad bought a new printer. the brand? "brother"....okay. nvr heard of it, but wth xD!

my aunt called earlier to ask me about my day. and she told me that actually she,my uncle and grandma were planning to get me the DSLR if i got good grades. the trouble is, good grades as in A's or solid grades? and it sucks to just think of it.

like my previous post has mentioned, i only got 1A. the rest were 6B's and 2C's. okay screw the C's. i got 7 strong grades. but oh look, 6 of em aren't A's. so yea its not good grades.

so everything in achievement of SPM goes by the A's. so even a B+ which is one grade lower than the A won't even be recognised as a strong grade. i find this very annoying. it's like the A decides everything. want a scholarship? get more A's. rewards? A's please. "oh all B+? sorry nothing." i mean come on! its not like without an A i'm a weak student. i'm just balanced that's all!

try telling most people who asks you for your results that you have only 1 or 2 A's and i bet you the first thing that comes to their mind :" oh a weak/so-so student". it's like the B's don't even count. i don't know but i just freaking hate this mentality. all the about the damn A's.

okay fine it's part of my fault too for not studying hard enough to get the A's. a lil more effort would have changed everything now would it? but what would be the point? if you're a student who gets a few A's say maybe like 4 or 5, then it'll go down to comparing who has more A's and then we go all over again. same thing, just on a higher scale.

*sigh* but what can you do about it? that's how the world goes. reality can be so mean. everything is so competitive these days. being good just won't cut in. everything wants the best only.

and another thing about life here is that its so unfair especially when it comes to deciding your future. choose to live for the sake of living or choose to live happily? choosing to live happily might seem like the choice for everyone, but choosing this won't guarentee that you'll live long enough. choosing to live for the sake of living however ensures that you will survive, but it won't be any fun or satisfaction. sucks huh?

well what can i say, everything will eventually happen. leave it to fate i guess.....

k.ienlam

spm results...right. now what?

right so today was result day. am i proud of my results? no. happy? no. satisfied? no. i'll get straight to the point. here's my results :

*Bahasa Melayu - B+

*English - A+

*Moral - B+

*Sejarah - B+

*Mathematics - B+

*Additional Mathematics - C

*Physics - B

*Chemistry - C

*Biology - B

sad isnt it?a lil bit more effort and all the B+ could have been an A-. *sigh* nevermind, what's done is done. i'll have to make do without a scholarship.

anyway congratulations to those who achieved excellent results and average results. best of luck in your future :D. and to those who didn't fare very well, well....it's over isn't it? haha! enjoy la ;P

but right now the real headache starts. you see, i'm really into mass communication. talking to people, communicating...i like those kinda stuff. but of course, these kinda stuff won't last in the long run...sooner or later it'll have to pass down to the younger generation, wouldn't it? my mom and aunt is trying to get that in my mind and is asking me to consider other courses that would be more........stable?

so here's the breakdown :

Follow my choice : Benefit(s) = it's my interest, so i'd excel in it.

Disadvantage(s) = wouldn't last long as i age

Choosing something 'safe' : Benefit(s) = chances of a job and pay is more promising

Disadvantage(s) = if my heart's not in it, it probably wont make a

difference. i'll just be working for the sake of living.

so what'll it be? should i choose the red pill or the blue pill? i seriously have no idea. a part of me is ambitious and says that i should follow my dream. on the other hand, the logic side of me is telling me to do what's more logical and safer and continues to remind me about the consequences if the red pill is a mistake. and im in between.

so I don't know...seriously. what should i do? help me out guys.

i think i'll stop here for now. till sumthing else comes up, i'll update. ciaos.

oh btw,

this is the video of the fireworks i recorded as mentioned in my Hong Kong post. sorry it took super long =P! its kinda nice, i still enjoy watching it. give it a try ;D

k.ienlam

just listen please.

regarding my older post where i wrote about a certain race and used a god's name in it to release my anger, i apologise if it offended anyone and i hope you please understand what was i trying to say in that post and why i used those words.

first of all, i accept and realise my mistake. using the word 'allah' to swear isn't approprieate. out of anger i blogged with it, so that was my mistake of not having enough self-control.

second thing is, i know that i sound racist, and to you i am. but the fact is im not. using 'malay' as reference is inapprorieate also i know. that's racist isn't it? scolding someone by their race. i get it. but i didn't have any other way to refer to the particular individual. i only knew he was a malay guy. okay fine, i'm sure you're saying, 'why cant you just refer to him as "that guy" or something like that?' yea okay sorry for not thinking of that while i was pissed. but i DID clearly state that i don't refer to the ENTIRE race. i stated that i'm refering to the ONES LIKE THAT PARTICULAR INDIVIDUAL that i'm pissed at. meaning the one's that has his same attitude.

a friend of mine then asked me, "so you're saying my race has a bunch of 's***i's?" i would say yes. infact all races have. its a fact. there's no particular race in this world that everyone of that race is all good and well mannered. its the same. i can state here that i'm chinese, but there are still suckers out there who are a disgrace to the chinese. and i'd condemn them if it had anything to do with me.

this isn't about me being racist or whatsoever. if i'm being a racist, you think i'd even bother adding that last sentence? heck i'll just condemn the whole race la, why i wanna exclude the one's who isn't like the guy i mentioned? i exclude cuz i'm not racist. i refer to those people and only them.

so go ahead and call me racist, i know what i'm trying to say. if people can feel offended when it's just a lil condemn about the suckers of their race WHICH they themselves are not one of the suckers, then i don't know what to say.

i've been condemn before for years in high school. and the comments and critics goes straight to ME. in my face. if i can handle it being critisized about myself, why can't you handle it when i'm just critisizing the 'bad' type of yur race and not even you?

if I were to explain this on facebook, the first thing i'd get would be death-threat comments. so i'm gona put my explaination here. if you feel the need to talk to me about it, drop a message. i'm just expressing what i feel is right. if it's wrong to you, then have it your way, i'll just have to say sorry. but as for what i mentioned in the second paragraph, that is 100% my fault. i apologise again for that.

k.ienlam

'accidental' pass :D

Hey everyone, im back lol. just came to update some stuff.

SPM results coming out in 2 more days...11/3/2010. nervous? tension? don't worry me too :) but everything's done, i just pray for my 6A's or more xD!! i hope everyone gets good results yo :P!

oh the GREAT news bout today. i 'accidentally' passed my driving exam LOL! define "accidently", u say? well it was like this. i got into my car, waiting for my turn on the slopes. checked everything...then decided to try the clutch. put the gear to reverse and reversed abit..BANG! LOL! hit the car behind me WHICH wasn't there when i checked =.= lucky the helpers there asked me to move forward and JPJ officers didn't see a thing! LOL! accident? maybeee :D. pass? YOU BET! LOL!

haha anyway, hope to drive soon..cuz i won;t have to worry about transportation anymore :P hope to see you guys from 1992 with happy faces jumping around on Thursday haha! till then, ciao!

k.ienlam

A Night To Blog.

Lol hey everyone, sorry its been a month since my last post. February kept me busy haha ;) Lots had happened, lots will be remembered ( im not even sure if my grammar is correct.ah wth xD! ) . To sum it all up, Feb was fun, I mean it. I mean....I learned to drive! annndddd failed my exam =(. will pass next time...WILL! YOU HEARD ME! ;)

Okay ignore my crazy self at the paragraph above. sudden rush of confidence xD!

well, other than driving..i finally bought my iPod Touch! yeap..and i'm loving it :) thx JJ for teaching me how to jailbreak =). sorry for the trouble caused xD!

Lets see..what else. Oh. Happy Valentines Day and Happy Chinese New Year! lol yes i know it was long gone..but it aint a crime to wish late xD! CNY wasn't as active as last year..and it was a freaking hot CNY this year. The Sun must've been on pills =.=.

Other than that, i've had quite a number of outings lol. Birthday parties, house visits, late night gaming..haha. I even learned some mahjong this year xD! Dun let me 'gong' and 'pong' you ngahahaha!

Oh and i've gotten myself hooked onto Street Fighter IV. already joined a community at Cineleisure....more to come xD! learning from a 'master' currently =O.

It was nice to meet up with friends after school. everyone has changed ( well..almost everyone xD!) since i last met them back in school last year. change is good i guess =). If Jaclyn is reading this she'll sure to be flattered ahahahah!

Oh, and happy bday to those who aged this month. Leong Jie Ying a.k.a my sifu 81 year.....er i mean 18 years YOUNG adi xD! happy bday =P. And the Jaclyn, happy 4.5 years old! the first baby i know studying in college xD! And since now its 1st of March already...Boss Fish a.k.a Ee Shan, happy bday also xD! Hope you grow taller la LOL!

SPM results are out on the 16th. Thats 15 days from now. Life changing day lol. To my uncle Pak Choong : I WILL WIN YOUR OFFER! MARK ME WORDS XD!

ahaha talking bout life changing..something is about to happen to. I'm gona......aiya nvm la when it happens only i blog about it...if i feel like it *smirk*. you wanna noe wat happens, stay tuned to Fireflies xD!

Well that's all for now. Hopefully i get more nights like this that makes me wanna blog. See you guys on result day alright? ;). and good luck for those having driving exams/college semester exams/first term exams...anyone needs any luck for anything, know that you can take some here by reading this =D! *Good Luck* see you all soon!


k.ienlam